Numbness in my Soul
/Have you ever been so exhausted, so overloaded, so overwhelmed (even with good things or a mixture of good and hard) that you are numb ... on the verge of tears one minute then totally blank the next? That's me right now.
Three weeks with "littles" (I love them to pieces, but the energy doesn't coincide), overlapped by my husband's medical procedure that cancelled out a looked-forward-to trip to visit siblings on my beloved Jersey shore, capped off with my own need for a CT scan of an unexpected abnormality found in a previous ultrasound -- all have contributed to my "blank" numbness.
All kinds of twists and turns in the path we thought would be ours this month! It reminds me of one of my favorite verses in Proverbs. In fact, I have loved it so much that I framed it and hung it in my son Jeremy's nursery forty years ago ... and I've quoted it ever since:
We may make our plans, but God has the last word.
Proverbs 16:1 GNT
Yesterday, I gave my friend Sue a very belated birthday card ... like two and a half months belated. But maybe my card wasn't late in God's timing. The card talked about the "road less traveled," appropriate since she and I walk and talk and pray together. And I just happened to be in Proverbs again in my daily reading (in The One Year Chronological Bible). Look at what jumped off the page and onto my friend's card:
How can we understand the road we travel?
It is the LORD who directs our steps.
Proverbs 20:24 NLT
When Sue and I walked and talked together yesterday we acknowledged the truth of that Scripture for both of us. And isn't it comforting that God meets us in the midst of the "blank" and "numb" and "overwhelmed," directing our paths according to HIS ways not our own.
Friends, are you numb right now -- exhausted, overwhelmed, blank? You moms of young children surely hit this often! Just know, dear one, that this is the Lord's road for you, and He is with you in it ... guiding you, loving you, empowering you through His indwelling Spirit by faith ... no matter how you feel. He is there! Trust Him.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7 NIV
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